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Anti-Pro-Ana by cyanideindustries Anti-Pro-Ana by cyanideindustries
This deviation is rather a statement than a "piece of art".

Ever since I was 13, I have been struggling with anorexia. In times of complete desperation, I found the ridiculous, dangerous idea of simply being pro-ana tremendously tempting; it was "easier" to just claim it was a lifestyle, not a disease and therefore not having to summon up the energy to fight and help myself.
I started wearing one of these red bracelets representing "Pain is temporary, pride is forever", "perfection", "courage", "beauty" and "bite me", set up an "ana-book" with "thinspiration" pictures and slogans, and for some time, I really did feel like (or tried to tell myself I did feel like) I was just living a lifestyle I had chosen for myself and did not need any help.

And one day I woke up. Pro-ana is nothing but firstly, a dangerous cult-like pest and secondly an excuse for not having to fight and having given up on yourself.

Anorexia is a sickness. Not a lifestyle.

I am now twenty-one years old and thanks to my eating disorder I've still not completely recovered from, I have osteoporosis, my kidneys are damaged and I have quite a lot of hideous stretch-marks from losing weight, gaining weight, losing weight, gaining weight, losing weight.
I almost starved to death. Thrice.

Being shockingly thin is not beautiful.
Being shockingly thin is not "perfection".
Bones sticking out of your body are not exactly a parameter for a "perfect figure".
And OH YES, a LOT of things taste WAY better than being thin feels.

Women are supposed to be curvy, confident and healthy looking.

I started wearing a green bracelet as a complete opposite to the red pro-ana one. And even though I am not completely cured, I fight. Every day. Because I do love myself and I do love the life I was given. And so should all of you. You're worth it.
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Kyla-Nadie Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012  Student General Artist
<3
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EllaHitana Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
While I personally am pro Ana I really enjoy your concept of green vrs red braclets! A very creative way to keep yourself on track. I love it
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lorencechan Featured By Owner May 4, 2010
i hav fav'd this purely for the artists comment as this is something i can read whenever i feel like im falling back into my dark place

'And OH YES, a LOT of things taste WAY better than being thin feels.'

so soo true x
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namirenn Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2010
you are a really great person,i wish there would be more like you :worship:
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g-barbatus Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2009
Good for you. Stay strong, stay on track, and most important of all, stay healthy. Healthy is beautiful.
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madamefly Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for this :) Thanks for your honesty. Keep fighting. You are a real inspiration, in opposite to those thinspirations on pro-ana sites.
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classically-fragile Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2009   Photographer
:hug: keep fighting, it's worth it, I promise you.


:heart:
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WeirdFaerie Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2009
Thank you for this :heart:
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heartshapedscarz Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2009  Professional Traditional Artist
I commend you for having the courage to tell your story. I used to be a cutter and had/have body dysmorphia. Putting your personal story in such a public forum (ie- the internet) isn't always easy. There are those people who don't fully understand what it's like, how hard it is to fight.
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satanicteddybear Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2009
Congrats honey. Stay strong; you will pull through this. :hug:
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cyanideindustries Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2009
Thank you. :)
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notyourbisquedoll Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2009
stay strong :)
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mintmintmoomoo Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2009
This has been featured : [link]
:heart: Thankyou :heart:
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ThereForTomorrow Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2009
I have so much respect for you. :]
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cathubodva Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2009
wahre worte.
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muffinonie Featured By Owner May 29, 2009  Student Digital Artist
thank you for this
i'm sure a lot of people (myself included) needed something like this
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FabAngelx Featured By Owner May 20, 2009
Girl , you're my hero.
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rebecca-68 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2009
you're very brave to move on....i'm not :( i can't fight her, she tells me i'm fat every day! gosh
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Black-Velvet-Lady Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2009   Photographer
I didn't know the green ones were used to say that...
excellent!
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mistress-macabre Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for this.

Your bravery is beautiful.
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AliceAtHeart Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2009
Blue is Mia
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cyanideindustries Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2009
Well, I appreciate the trivia - but no, purple is for mia.
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Lisatjuh Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2009  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Really??!! I thought it was blue too :O
I see on most of the sites I visit that blue is for mia & red for ana
(yes I am a pro ana I wanna be thin for myself only. Don't tell me diffrent, But, It's good you're trying to do what you tink is best ;) )
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cyanideindustries Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2009
Oh I won't tell you different, I don't judge you. It's your own decision. I just hope you are alright.
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Lisatjuh Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2009  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
yeah.. I'm still healty weight, and I'm bad at not eating anything..
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Jorinda Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2009
The world need more honest people like you.
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shanzeee Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
i adore this. good for you sweetie...
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only-edna Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2009   Writer
Thank you.
Keep fighting.
You are worth it.
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luciferous-glow Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2009
You are wonderful. Thank you for being so honest, nothing is more beautiful. :heart:
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